I am So sorry to read that you’ve been dealt such a cruel set of cards .... yes, the waiting really sucks for the results. Try and Keep as busy as you can, doing the things you love to help pass the time and we’ll all be praying for good results xx. If you find your sadness is getting on top of you, Please reach out for help ... the professionals will be able to give you coping mechanisms. As the others have said, spill your fears here and we’ll do our best to help you thru this tough time and moving forward as well ... xx. Definitely take a good friend with you to any appointments .. my sister in law was a godsend to me.
take care, our thoughts are with you xx