You sound like you're burnt out! I know that I am. Perhaps set a goal as you said of seeing this year out and in the meantime find yourself an alternative, a hobby, that will make you smile rather than a chore. Check out the Creative corner post. Lots of ideas from crafts to poetry - ideas are endless.
We all evolve regardless but the heightened awareness of self and aches and side effects is something that dominates at times.
Hopefully you'll come to a decision that suits you and not feel like BC made you change your course.
Take care
Sending you a virtual hug