I am So sorry to hear you've jumped on the BC Bandwagon @tisme - We all feel super alone when we get the news, downright scared & the whole roller coaster emotions kick in, which is entirely normal - some people may let you down, but others will step up to the plate to help you thru these initial stages xx .... Take lots of deep breaths to start off with - and do one thing at a time. You can do this.
Welcome to the forum (altho no-one is here by choice!)
Any question that you may have - whack them up here & you'll get a pretty honest answer!
Hopefully your actual diagnosis won't be too bad .... it is so easy for us to jump to the worst conclusions (or jump onto Dr Google when every case is just so different) - but try not to. One foot in front of the other just now ..... one day at a time.
Where abouts are you (City/town) - we may have members who can fill you in on local resources and backup.
Do you have anyone to go with you to the appointments with your GP (or assuming you will need it) surgeon? Having a buddy or relative with you will make a huge difference to understanding what is going on - or even record it on your phone for later use. Ain't none of us here by choice - but we ARE here to help you get thru this!! xx
Take care, and keep us in the loop ..... we are here to help you work thru this xx