Having one of those days or 2.........

@MelissaD I am so sorry you are going through this at such a young age - not that there is a good age for it! I am 52 and about to start chemo then radiation after a lumpectomy and right axillary clearance. I've been treated for anxiety and depression since 26, which I've just lived with, studied and worked. But now the anxiety actually has a reason - the cancer. In the past I didn't know why I was anxious. I also have been having the same thoughts as you re what happens at the end of treatment? Will it come back? Will I always be looking over my shoulder? I had to stop googling as the breast cancer info was overwhelming. Sometimes it can also be overwhelming online when you read posts where people have had a very bad time. Fear that the same could happen to you. So I make sure I am not online all the time. Having said that, the support here is amazing and the people are kind. Do you have access to free counselling at your hospital? Mine has free oncology counselling. I would give it a go, and if you don't like the first counsellor you see, try another, till you gel with someone. I have a good psych and she has recommended art therapy. I might even try the oncology counsellor to get a different viewpoint as my personal psych can help but it's not her area (cancer).  I was given some advice ... think in 15min blocks! If you are up to moving about, maybe see if you can do 15mins of tidying your room. Then stop. When you have some more energy, try 15mins of a walk in the park or down the road. Stop, and rest. When you're doing your task just think about that. See if you can have something on the horizon that is a pleasurable treat e.g. a couple of nights in the country or a sleepover at a friends. A girl's night maybe. But other than that, one day at a time. I'm looking forward to the cancer cure in your lifetime!  Take care, I know it is a struggle but we need to compartmentalise, maybe? E.g. I wrote a list of my worries in 15mins then put it away and distracted myself with a movie. Still, we can only do our best and be kind to ourselves when things become overwhelming. I'm glad you have your parents for support, that's great. My 77 year old dad is supporting me and I feel so grateful as really I should be looking after him. Take care and keep talking xx