That is a familiar feeling @Sister I used to be a confident public speaker and even though I don't like crowds, I could tolerate them for short periods. Now I get this bizarre anxiety about being in a group where I am expected to act like a normal person. I even struggle with my Red Hats group and I have known some of those women for years.
The effort of making small talk and being nice to people makes me sweat which, when you consider l was a librarian for 15 years and talked about nonsense to hundreds of people a day, is distinctly odd.
Oh well, it seems I am, for the moment, destined to present as moody and mysterious. That's when I don't appear to be downright rude and disinterested. Never mind, I'd rather that then hide at home for the rest of my life. I think....