Feeling anxious need some positive stories

Hi @Igray3911I have three sons.  In the past I have felt exactly the same way. The fear of the unknown can just consume every part of you at times. But it does get better. It will get better. You are still in flight or fright mode. The panic and endless fear is understandable. You have faced a life threatening situation and it's a HUGE deal. But it won't stay like this, as you continue with your recovery things will get better slowly. Sometimes you may feel like you are going backwards but then you'll go forwards again. Like the other ladies have said it can help to talk to a counsellor who has experience in dealing with cancer patients. I was able to see a psychiatrist attached to my public hospital who only sees cancer patients and it helped tremendously to know that others had felt the same and came through it.  It is coming up to 2 and a half years since my diagnosis. I had surgery, radiation, chemo with taxol and cyclophosphamide and 12 months Herceptin. I have changed my lifestyle, have lost 32 kgs and have done everything I can to kick cancer in the butt. 12 months since I started back at work a few hours a week I am now back stronger than even doing 50 plus hours and I feel great.  But I was a mess a while back, a total utter mess, crying all the time and fearing that life would never get better. I couldn't make a decision about anything, I felt lost and alone. But let me repeat, it does get better. It will get better. Hang in there. Just because you feel this way today doesn't mean you'll feel like this forever. I am now determined to make good memories with my three boys. I have taken all the photos out of the photo albums and put them under glass that I got cut specially for my kitchen table. Just looking at those every time we sit down to dinner makes us all laugh and laugh. We have family game night now every fortnight and that too is making memories. Next week all of us are climbing Sydney Harbour Bridge. If I am fortunate never to have cancer enter my life ever again, the memories I have made and continue to make will still be priceless. Sending you giant hugs.