@2MC Oh my, it really has been a rough year for you. No wonder you have so much anxiety. I’m so sorry about your dad and your dog, my deepest condolences ❤️. And I hope whoever did that to your dog gets their karma.
I’m similar to you with the anxiety you’ve had since a teen. I witnessed it quite young and my parents unfortunately never thought it would be a good idea to help me in some way. Psychologists were a big no no back then, especially in South Eastern Europe, where I come from. It’s taken to the age of 40 and my own cancer diagnosis to finally get myself into gear and do what needs to be done to deal with all that trauma and fear I carry. It’s hard, and even one hour with the psychologist can leave me feeling fatigued for the rest of the day. I also realised it’s not a bag of worries I carry, but a whole bus load of suitcases. But I’m already seeing massive results and as I said, am feeling happier and more liberated than ever. It’s also helping my social anxiety. But as with everything, it goes back and forth.
After everything you’ve been through this year, you’re doing quite well. You’ll get to your happy place again, it’s waiting for you ♥️