So true, Christine! It is a daily struggle to believe that we can be positive about our future, like we were before bc. I found it really difficult to plan too far ahead at first. That is a bit easier now 3 1/2 years down the track. Naturally we are so much more aware that there are no guarantees. I have lost friends to cancer since my diagnosis and have a couple with a Stage 4 diagnosis. I try to keep in mind that life is precious and so is good health. I find it helps me to keep a diary of things I am grateful for. I try to remind myself that today I am cancer free. Today I am well so I should make the most of that. :)