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Dealing with cancer while dealing with my own
Hi everyone. 5 years ago today I had surgety for DCIS. 4 years and 9 month later I was diagnosed with early BC. Surgery, radiation, ovaries removed, Arimidex. The whole program. I feel physically fine but the emotional side is a different matter. I have great support and my husband is my rock. Here comes the kicker. Just before my diagnosis in November a close friend of ours went into hospital for cancer related back surgery. His wife has been my support person last time. One week later my father in law was diagnosed with lung cancer. Fast forward to now and our dear friend has passed away and my father in law is recieving palliative care with days to live. I am trying so hard to keep it together. My 2 biggest supporters are suffering and I feel I should be helping them. My wonderful husband has lost a friend, is losing his dad and is trying to help me. How much more can he take? How can I ease his pain?
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- @Cathy_b1961
What a beautiful caring post! Best wishes with where you are at with treatment and lots of cuddles and talks with your golden lab
Hugs - @Justtoomuch its ok to feel sorry for yourselfsomtimes, i do. However its a place to visitbriefly not to live in. Talking to everyone and thing helps. I have the most amazing in depth talks with my golden lab. She sits and listens and just loves unconditionally. I use mynetwork to anyone who has a shoulder but i have surprised myself with an inner strength and determination i never knew i had. I mark off every day on the calender counting down and try n wake up each day with a smile and one positive thought to get me thru. Chin up you are not alone, happy to chat anytime hun.
- @Blossom1961 You so are didi. K xox
- @Justtoomuch The emotional roller coaster. Yep. I hear you. My hubby said “On any other woman I expect it. But not you.” I get so frustrated with myself and am constantly telling myself everything will settle down eventually and if not, I am just going to have to deal with it. Hang in there. Big hugs. Sometimes I give myself a hug to let me know I am worth it.
- It's all relevant, frustrating, emotional and everything in between. It's a rollercoaster that eventually we all hope to disembark and find some normality.
There are various groups on the forum that are private and you may find beneficial.
Please don't be too hard on yourself it does get better
Take care of you - There are so many stories, so many journeys and many of then so much harder than mine. I just keep putting one foot in front of the other telling myself I am fine. But it is the really little things that I find hard to deal with. I finally put 2 infections after surgery behind me and was given the okay for some intimacy. But before I got there I now have painful tears. Just as I think a bit of normal returns I am proven to be wrong. Again. I am so frustrated about getting emotional because let's face it, these are such minor issues but they really knock me down.
- @Cathy_b1961 i totally get where you're coming from. I've always believed that not so nice happenings/events come in threes though not necessarily connected. We had our three, you've had your three. Lets hope there's no more. Hope your hubby's daughter goes well with her surgery. Hugs, Cathxx
- I am so sorry to hear what you are going through. Just be there supporting each other is the best I know it sounds like a cliche but it works. My hubby and I married in October 2018 he was diagnosed with a melanoma in the eye in November and had it removed New Years Eve. Two weeks later I was diagnosed with Bc her2. It has been a full on 5 months and we both feel like we are waitng for that other shoe to drop. Eight weeks from diagnosis to removal for him and eight weeks from diagnosis to starting chemo for me. In the interim his daughter has just been diagnosed with a thyroid tumour and is undegoing surgery next week. Thank goodness we come from fabulous families and have the most wonderful neighbours who mow and walk the dog. I am usually a very queit private person who lives a quiet life ut ghis time I put my hand u p and said HELP.
- @Justtoomuch
Keep the lines of communication open, being aware of each others moods, lots of hugs and just being there for each other. My cancer diagnosis came a month after my husband's prostate cancer diagnosis. I'd only just settled my brain on that when mine came through. And yes my hubby was my rock as i was his but it hit me more emotionally. At the end of it all we came to the conclusion that we were more worried about each other. I ended up seeing a psychologist which helped immensely and we both started a gym program, a small thing but it helped to gain control over our lives again. For us it worked, particularly me. All of this takes time, patience and love. Be kind to yourselves at this really difficult time and know that things will get better. Hugs to you both, Cathxx - Dear @Justtoomuch,
Best wishes from jennyss in Western NSW
