Hi @Ktre, this is the hardest time as it is so overwhelming and the unknown treatment ahead is all scary. You can do it, you are strong as evidenced by reaching out here. Everyone has given good advice to you above. One step at a time, keep busy if you can and get some walks in if possible but also allow yourself to rest and recover.
Take hubby or someone to your appointments. I took my husband and it was helpful as sometimes it's hard to take it all in. Write your questions down for when you see your dr. Take notes if you need to. Ask the dr about counselling. It is important and it helps to process it all. Once you have a treatment plan you can build the online tool to suit your needs. You can always phone bcna and someone would help you set it up. Having a treatment plan made me feel like I was getting somewhere.
My other suggestion is think about who you share all this with, you need people who support you and if friends or family want to help, take that help up. Even ask for help that you want or need. Do you need help with hanging up washing or housework or meals? If people offer just accept it as it can be hard for your whole family too.
Take time out with hubby. He loves you and he probably has no idea how to help. Give yourself time to adjust and hubby too. Does hubby need to talk to someone as well or together. Just another idea.
Stay in touch and let us know how it goes and what your treatment will be going forward. It is different for everyone as everyone's cancer is different.
Best wishes and sending you a big hug xxx 🌻