Butt Naked! (Don't report me !) LOL
They say what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas! and we all know BCNA is our virtual "Vegas" where we won't be judged and we can say it as it is! So here goes....
I've had a rough couple of weeks but someone’s recent post about ‘The healing wonders of nature” and her dancing in the rain took me back to a very recent moment where I impulsively did something I would normally never do! but which gave me so much joy. I hope me spilling my little secret on here will at least make one of you smile or even better, encourage you to find a moment in your journey where you too could really let your hair down and experience some joy.
In October when my treatment finished we took our family on a well-deserved vacation to Tangalooma (this is where I hope I don't get reported...lol) One day, hubby and I went for a very long walk and found ourselves on a beautiful remote stretch of beach far from the resort. We both looked at each other and I instinctively knew what he was thinking before he even said it! "let’s skinny dip in the ocean!"...NOW, my hubby is very conservative and normally we would never ever do anything like this, but he didn't have to invite me twice! we both stripped down and giddily ran into the ocean. We felt like naughty children again waiting to be caught out by someone! For a second I did fear being attacked by a shark or something and having to be pulled out of the ocean butt naked!(imagine my poor rescuer having to pull out this naked, half bald 40yo woman with only one breast!! and something else on her chest resembling a scarred balloon!) But for that moment I just allowed myself to get submerged in the moment and I floated about on my back (one expander filled breast poking out of the water like Mount Everest) soaking up every ray of sunshine that hit every inch of my weary body without any care whatsoever! It was a bucket list moment which I will never forget.
It was our little secret until today (blush) :)
What I have learnt from our impulsive childish moment was to seek out little magical moments every day (not necessarily as extreme as skinny dipping) but to allow myself to just experience 'spur of the moment' kind of joy, where I can create something special, to help me cope and realise that there is still much to live for and enjoy. I think I might have missed many such moments this past year because I got too caught up in my circumstances and felt trapped in my 'bubble' called cancer!
I want to thank you all who share on here not just the bad but the good also because it reminded me of my own good moments and gives me hope. I am determined to find more moments again, to make memories for me and my family because in the end we don't remember days, we remember moments! and as they say "life is not a dress rehersal".
Be blessed with hope girls, and hang in there!
x
