I saw this video awhile ago, it is confronting how could it not be? I've been in the system about 14yrs, but strangely it took about 4yrs and at a routine mammo I had DCIS? hmmm really? that's a coincidence I thought. Even with aggressive treatment for DCIS I had a recurrence at the 4yr mark, same spot in the scar tissue...ridiculous really. This was stage 2, grade 3 aggressive, so chemo and tamoxifen was thrown in the bin by my Oncologist lol as he said it doesnt work in a third of cases as it has learned to adapt. Unlucky?? who knows apparently. So now Im 8 years from 1st diagnosis, a year post treatment I had a single mastectomy after genetic testing was negative because only 5% is BRCA1 or 2, mind you they havent identified the millions of other mutations yet...
I've only ever had a mammo and U/sound, never in 8 yrs an MRI, its always been successful for me picking anything up. Do I think of another recurrence??? NOPE...but not through ignorance but why?? and do I think about the possibility of METS??? NOPE...why??? because I will miss every single moment of my life right now worrying about something I cannot control.
Not everyone gets Mets, my Mum was 25yrs from BC and died from an unrelated cancer at 66. She didnt have mets, I have known of friends who have had after 10-15yrs. So really, every year is a blessing and I just live. I am currently 4yrs clear 2nd diagnosis and I didnt get that far last time, so I am NED all clear and I dont look at it any other way. If it ever happened again, what can I do.
So ladies dont get hung up on the maybes, because you will miss the precious moments of your life right now, and that is all that matters, the past has gone, the future isnt here....we only have NOW!
Live Live Live however that looks for you..x
