Thanks Zoffiel, I am seeing my Surgeon next Tuesday so I'll see what he advises me to do. I have options to let it grow bigger so I can be treated locally, have it operated on in the City or have Radiation in the City. I have a breast cancer support group I go to & I had just seen the Breast Cancer Nurse last week who is putting me through a regime of exercise for cancer patients, counselling for depression & possibly referred to a psychologist, nutritionist & attend the group sessions. I missed the first one as one lady I friended died while I was in the UK & I knew they'd talk about her & the next one I missed as I was having the MRI.
Unfortunately I'm not living alone by choice, I lost my 2 little boys at 7yrs & 11yrs to juvenile Huntington's Disease which we'd never heard of even though we went to counselling before starting a family. Then 4 yrs ago my husband died of Huntington's Disease (the normal adult one) in palliative care. We did have a dog but while I was having the last tumour out her heart condition blew out of proportion & my girlfriend had to take her to the Vet to be put down while I was sedated overnight & the following day. I had cancer but didn't know it when my 11yr old died and was just recovering from chemo, radiation when my husband died but thought that would be the end of cancer. I have a little foster dog from a puppy farm with me now as company but I'm keeping her if all goes well with this bloody tumour. Looking back at what I've written it seems I lose someone every time I get cancer. :s
I'm still walking with a crutch for security & if they want to operate what happens if another shows up, then another? A full body scan in January gave me the all clear so now I'm worried these scans I'll be having 3 monthly might not be as accurate as I'd hoped.
Your advice is spot on though, I wish I had a glass bowl that could tell me my future so I could make the decision confidently. I'm very lucky to have such supportive friends though who saw me through the last operation & rehab & are already working out who is going to take me where when needed. Thank you for your help. xoxoxoxoxo