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9 years ago

What the ?

For the last 5 to 6 weeks I have been experiencing back pain, in my neck, beneath my shoulder blades, and in my low er back. Had 2 appointments this week, the discharge appointment with my rads oncologist, and then my medical oncologist. This pain is worse in my neck, and it wakes me at 3am, then Im on the couch with nurofen and tiger balm being my friends.
My rads oncologist said that I should have a bone scan next week and that he would ring me next Friday, giving me a cuddle. What the....... Then came the medical oncologist appointment, who agreed with my rads doctor, he ordered some blood tests, and said that he will ring me on Thursday.
You know me, miss sunny and miss motivation. What the.....?  I had a little cry in the last appointment, as my wonderful hubby stated how tough I was, and when I did cry, he said Trace is a positive one, she'll get on with it, then..... I didn't know it worried you so much.... What the.....? 
So..... now where I thought it was side effects from Arimidex it could be something else is very scary until I know the results. My medical oncologist said that there are a number of options available in treatment if it is a recurrence. He was so kind and had picked up that I was concerned.
Holy ######## What the.......... Here I am, poking along, getting ready for an art exhibition and this has been a week that has taken my breath away. I don't normally vent, so thanks for being there.
Cuddles, Trace xxx

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    Nadi said:
    Oh Trace WTF**** indeed! What a worry!!! It might still be something other than a recurrence. Fingers crossed that it will be ok. Please let us know. HUGS HUGS HUGS
    Thanks Nadi, fingers are crossed, along with toes, hair strands, legs and arms ! I will let you know when I know. This is such a great space to scream. Thanks for the hugs, cuddles right back xxx
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    Nadi said:
    Oh Trace WTF**** indeed! What a worry!!! It might still be something other than a recurrence. Fingers crossed that it will be ok. Please let us know. HUGS HUGS HUGS
    Thanks Honey, bloody hell..... I feel like a 4 wheel drive stuck in the mud. The wheels are going round but I'm going nowhere. I suppose it's yet another case of teaching you patience while you freak out. Thanks so much for the hugs xxx
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    Hi Trace ..really feel for as i have gone through this as well...life is a shit when we have to wait to know the crazy outcome..i hope it is not the big M just bone degeneration from treatment. Healthy vibes xo B
    Thanks Honey, look I know that none of us get out of this thing alive, and you're right.....life is a shit when you have to wait. I was aware that chemo had blessed me with with osteoporosis in my hips and lumber spine. Alrighty then, I won't hop skip or jump for a while, and that's perfectly fine. 
    However when they give you a cuddle and be kind it is a concern. I even told my hubby not to be kind to me, as it makes me cry more. Am I trying to be too tough ?
  • Oh Trace WTF**** indeed! What a worry!!! It might still be something other than a recurrence. Fingers crossed that it will be ok. Please let us know. HUGS HUGS HUGS
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    Zoffiel said:
    Good luck, Trace. This shit is yet another reason no-one wants this disease. Between worrying that the crap is back and dealing with the 'known unknowns' of drug side effects it's a wonder any of us function at any level. 
    It just makes it worse, in some perverse way, when they are nice to you.
    Best wishes. Marg
    Thanks Marg, in one way I'm grateful that I have so many people on my side. I'm a private person, so the only people that know are my husband and my kids until we know more. I'm usually the one supporting others, organising the monthly support group, and ringing newly diagnosed people in my small community to make sure they are okay. I am highly aware that it does affect those around you, so don't want to make a mountain out of a molehill until it is clear what is happening. However it is stressful, and I will feel better when I know the deal and what options are available to me going forward. At the moment, Smiley Girl is still forging forward but putting up a good front. However I am now flying like a wounded bird.
    Youre awesome, thanks heaps, Trace xxxx
  • Hi Trace ..really feel for as i have gone through this as well...life is a shit when we have to wait to know the crazy outcome..i hope it is not the big M just bone degeneration from treatment. Healthy vibes xo B
  • Good luck, Trace. This shit is yet another reason no-one wants this disease. Between worrying that the crap is back and dealing with the 'known unknowns' of drug side effects it's a wonder any of us function at any level. 
    It just makes it worse, in some perverse way, when they are nice to you.
    Best wishes. Marg