Hi there @Chipo sounds like you are very fragile at the moment. It’s totally normal for you to feel the way you are. You have to do what’s best for you. I have heard of women having chemo when they are pregnant and they have got through it but it sounds like you’ve had issues with the previous pregnancy plus having chemo might just be too much for you so I get it. There will be no judgement on here from us. There are lots of lovelies on here with young families going through bc who will give you plenty of advice and support. I hope your husband steps up and takes good care of you too. Once you have a plan of attack it will seem less daunting as you will know exactly what you are dealing with. Please seek the help you need I know you must miss your mum more than ever now too. I’ve lost both my parents so I know what that feels like. . It’s tough but we will be here for you and I hope you have other family and friends to support you as well. Biggest hug Margie xx