Hi and welcome Sabbra,
Sorry to see you here, but you have come to the right place for support and understanding of what you are going through, mentally and physically.
Waiting is the hardest, it’s usually where your brain goes into overload thinking about so much.
My advice is don’t use google as it’s not accurate. The only website I would recommend is Cancer Council or BCNA.
I did a meditation and mindfulness course which I found beneficial for my well being and to help me sleep at night.
Do things that you enjoy to take your mind of things, I use to turn the music up loud and sing, I threw myself into house work, so I was tired enough at night time to get to sleep.
What state are you in as I’m sure other people will be able to point you in the right direction for support and breast cancer nurses in your area.
This Network is amazing and there may be someone local to you.
Just remember YOU CAN DO THIS.
Sending the biggest cyber hugs your way
xoxo