New and so confused

Now that the decision has been made, I'm sure some of the anxiety of should I ? shouldn't I ?, has reduced. Of course we all know that this will be replaced by all sorts of other stresses, concerns and worries, and this is the place to bring them. We, your fellow tribes members, will always be here to hear you. Really hear you and get you. You have your combat boots ready and polished and ready for battle and that is a good thing too. I wish you all the very best with your treatment and am sending you a big cyber (((hug))). Ally.

Thank you and up until 5 minutes ago I didn’t know about the impact on fingernails or toenails. Thanks for tip about the hair pulling. This network is really going to be my greatest support for the next year at least. @Zoffiel

Making decisions can be the hardest part (apart from the bloody waiting) @newby24. Cutting your hair is a great idea, you will probably want to buzz it off completely about day 14 when it starts to fall out, don't be surprised if that feels like its being pulled out, it can be quite painful for a couple of days.
Take care of yourself in the coming weeks, it's tempting to try to be wonder woman which, as many of us can attest, is setting yourself up for failure. Delegate and accept any offers of help that are actually helpful (sometimes people get it completely wrong, bless them) Rest when you can and remember there are no stupid questions. Good luck, you've got this, Mxx

Thank you everyone and even though I am terrified, I do feel better for actually making the decision and feel ready to do this shit. I’m going to cut my hair very short on Tuesday cause I don’t think I can hack it falling out in lumps. I’ve sat my 16, 15, 13 and 10 year old grannies down n given the heads up as to what could lie ahead and they make me so proud. My two daughters have come to every meeting so they are aware and I have moved in with one daughter but other daughter lives about 5 houses away. My cancer nurse is amazing and is always on call to answer any questions I have. I actually use this network more than Facebook 😂 so it is what it is but I’m ready for the fight for my life. 

Do you feel better for having made the decision @Newby24? K xox

Sorry I missed your post but been off line. I look at it like this....you get one shot at a cure. After that it's just keeping  it at bay. 
As to family history...pre bloods and full workup is good. We don't always follow our family...it's not always genes but fsmily lifestyle factors that contribute and we can focus  on reducing those risks as much as we can. Great job on your decision, asking questions and talking to a dietitian. Sounds like your right on track. Best of luck for your 1st treatment. Kath x

It's good to come to a decision you're happy with.  All the best for Wednesday.

Best of luck - now you know you are doing everything you can. Cross fingers for a not too rocky ride.

Update - I am going ahead with the chemo next Wednesday. I am going to throw everything at this. Thank you to everyone on here, as, at the moment you are all my besties who I feel can understand exactly what I’m going through. 

Yep, just do what you've gotta do and know that you've done your best, @Newby24

There are no guarantees in life, sadly even if you throw the kitchen sink at it.  

There will still be a percentage of us who may go on to a more serious condition - tho we just hope it isn't 'us'!  :(