Living in fear
I was diagnosed earlier this year, i had surgery and just finished chemo now on radiation. Doctors said after treatment the chance of reccurrence is low but since day one im living in fear of the canc...
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Hi @Sydney
Welcome lovely. As the ladies have already said this is absolutely and perfectly normal as is the "limbo land" after active treatment ends. That first year after I found the most difficult and is a windy road back. It does get easier to shove it to the far reaches of your mind the further you get down the track. It's never going to go completely but you can put it away it for longer. The crying gets less and you start to take a lot more notice of the good moments and appreciate them. In fact, I make a conscious effort to seek those moments out daily. Things you never even noticed before because you were too busy take on a different meaning. Make the time to stop and look around at the sky, watch the birds, feel the breeze on your face, look at the sunset for just a moment. Those moments start to add up. I wish I had have done that sooner.
It's a long road lovely but you'll get there. Promise.
xoxoxoxoxoxo
Welcome lovely. As the ladies have already said this is absolutely and perfectly normal as is the "limbo land" after active treatment ends. That first year after I found the most difficult and is a windy road back. It does get easier to shove it to the far reaches of your mind the further you get down the track. It's never going to go completely but you can put it away it for longer. The crying gets less and you start to take a lot more notice of the good moments and appreciate them. In fact, I make a conscious effort to seek those moments out daily. Things you never even noticed before because you were too busy take on a different meaning. Make the time to stop and look around at the sky, watch the birds, feel the breeze on your face, look at the sunset for just a moment. Those moments start to add up. I wish I had have done that sooner.
It's a long road lovely but you'll get there. Promise.
xoxoxoxoxoxo