Hi Jacqui
So sorry to hear about your diagnosis. Completely understandable you're an emotional mess. It's awful and I don't think anyone can understand just how awful and terrifying until they've been in the same boat.
Great news that yours is small and early, but that doesn't detract from the enormity of the news. Strange that we put ourselves down like that. Some kind of guilt - not being as bad off as others. I felt like that too - there are lots of women who have early cancers, but it's still traumatic. You're not a nutcase and you're not carrying on! This place is great for help.
How many steps? Maybe just try and focus on the step in front of you, your GP appointment, or it could get overwhelming. Your medical team will look after you :)