That's a bummer @Pixen ... if you need to talk to someone about anything, give our help line a call on 1800 500 258 ...
Welcome to the forum - I hope we can help you with your decision making, surgery & recovery xx
We have 2 private groups re Reconstruction - those choosing reconstruction and those who choose not to take the reconstruction route. They have photos of before & after too, to give you a realistic expectation of what it may look like. Many women now choose for an 'aesthetic closure' (like Charlotte Tottman - a BC Psychologist who had a double mastectomy - read her story below.) You may also like to listen to her Podcasts of 'What you Don't know til you do' here:
Season 1:
https://www.bcna.org.au/resource-hub/podcasts/what-you-dont-know-until-you-do/Season 2:
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/discussion/25505/season-2-podcast-series-what-you-don-t-know-until-you-do-with-dr-charlotte-tottman#latestGo to this link & see if any of the other groups may suit you as well (was your diagnosis ILC? We have an ILC group too):
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/groupsDo you live in Melbourne 'proper'? Or are you in an outlying town/region? We have info for rural & regional members too.
Check out this link for a lot of info on our group (what to take to hospital etc) as well as 'off topic' subjects that you may like to take part in - your pets, garden, art & craft and even some funny threads too (as we all need to laugh!)
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/discussion/23477/a-big-welcome-to-all-new-online-network-members#latesttake care & all the best