Feelings and waiting..
I like to write for my own therapy and figured here would be a good place to do it - for validation, to help others maybe, and just knowing I'm in an environment that understands this roller coaster. ...
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Hi @aussiee13
Being fed slowly into a mincer is a deeply unpleasant experience, particularly when you also have to decide whether to go in head first or feet first.
Telling people about it is difficult, and their reactions can range from comforting to infuriating. It would be nice if we could control the conversations, but once that cat is out of the bag, there is no shoving it back in again. Loss of self is shitty enough without some expectation that you should try to explain it to bystanders who have no bloody idea what it feels like.
Ah well, you are not on your own here. As a senior member of the Twisted Bitter Sisters Club (I just made that up, but I think I might be onto something) I can assure you that though your circumstances are different from other people's, the emotional train wreck is an all too familiar event. Hang in there. Mxx
Being fed slowly into a mincer is a deeply unpleasant experience, particularly when you also have to decide whether to go in head first or feet first.
Telling people about it is difficult, and their reactions can range from comforting to infuriating. It would be nice if we could control the conversations, but once that cat is out of the bag, there is no shoving it back in again. Loss of self is shitty enough without some expectation that you should try to explain it to bystanders who have no bloody idea what it feels like.
Ah well, you are not on your own here. As a senior member of the Twisted Bitter Sisters Club (I just made that up, but I think I might be onto something) I can assure you that though your circumstances are different from other people's, the emotional train wreck is an all too familiar event. Hang in there. Mxx