Hello Esther, all feelings are ok as you negotiate or attempt to negotiate the 'newly diagnosed' experience and continue with what was once 'normal' life. Please insist on quiet 'me' time. I found that family and friends all dealt with the shock of my news in different ways and on a couple of occasions found myself consoling them. It can be exhausting and I found my head space for dealing with day to day business was a bit limited. I let it be and rode with it. Please talk to a breast care nurse about traveling. I lived in NY for a few years and its a long and demanding journey from Oz. If you need to take medications with you make sure you have letters from your Dr or Oncologist - others may be be able to share their experiences regarding this. American airport security is not fun at the best of times - make sure you have access to water as it helps stress - again, a letter from your Dr will make things a bit easier. Yes, just trying to leave the queue can be a major security issue. On the up side, sitting in Central Park or standing with the tourists in Times Square always gave me a bit of a buzz - I'm a country girl so I never quite got over the wow factor that I actually lived and worked there. Enough about me, as Brenda5 suggested, you may well be feeling overwhelmed and that's ok. Ask for help and let family and friends know when you need to retreat and rest.xBeryl