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Autismandbc
5 years agoMember
Despair
Hello. Have had surgery and will start radiotherapy on the 19th June and estrogen blocker for 5 years. Had Asperger's Syndrome and depression already. I'm 53 and after an horrendous life filled with cruelty I thought I would get through this easily as it is not the worst thing that has happened to me. No. I am numb, have developed a hatred for men and spend every day fighting off suicidal thoughts. I know I will get through however I am seeing myself from an out of body sort of sensation where I feel as though someone else has taken over. I feel like an entirely different person and am aware that I am developing some kind of disassociative personality disorder. Autism is exhausting and this on top of it is like being buried alive. I don't want to add to anyone's depression but I really have nothing left to give. I don't know what else to do.
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- Carissa_BCNAMemberJust a note to say we have decided to close this discussion as the conversation moved away from the original topic. For reference, our community guidelines can be viewed at the top of each page under 'Community Info.'
Thanks for your understanding. - kmakmMemberThere can be however, a very fine line between speaking one's truth and being offensive. Proceed down this path with caution! Kindness should always triumph. K xox
- FLCloverMember@Autismandbc I agree there. Voicing your opinion means you’re speaking your truth, as opposed to stifling it to keep others happy or to be accepted by society or the majority and not be ridiculed or judged. When you start doing that, you’re basically living for others, and that doesn’t end well. It’s also a lot healthier to vent here than to binge drink, as you said 👌🏻
- AutismandbcMemberThanks Halla. It doesn't matter if we agree or disagree on certain subjects because it's the act of feeling compelled to voice an opinion that makes you feel empowered regardless of the logic or lack of logic involved in the debate. I feel more positive when I express frustration in a healthy way, like on a forum instead of binge drinking. Let's SMASH that 10 kgs in the face and send it straight to hell!!! 😘
- AutismandbcMemberDespair occurs when you believe the government is there to keep you safe. Keeping us safe is not the highest priority to this government. The economy is. The reference to WA as being a " police state" is NOT a reflection of disrespect because it IS a fact that you could only know if you have been involved in police corruption and a legal system which has nothing to do with justice, and over many decades. And I have NO respect for the police in any state or the judicial system in any state but I do respect my Premiers efforts regarding Covid, in comparison to other state leaders. And to all VICTORIANS and non Victorians; I keep MYSELF safe. The government does NOT keep us safe because they make flawed decisions and consistent avoidable mistakes based on corrupt governing policies which prioritise power, finance and international relations over the well being of the middle and lower class families, individuals and sole traders. They DONT keep me safe from the flu, or covid my personal choices do.
- HallaMemberGlad you are feeling a bit more positive @Autismandbc ... I’m looking forward to doing the same - radiation and 10kg loss here we come! Let’s do it!
- AfraserMemberPerhaps best to get back on topic , we’ve all had our say!
- June1952MemberExactly, IF people did listen to the health advice and acted accordingly.
Knowing 2 people who have been in ICU for several months with covid I know I don't want to get it and if I have to have my social wings clipped to stay safe then it is OK with me.
I don't think the covid lockdown was the original title of this post ??? but it has sort of gone off topic. - FLCloverMember@June1952 covid is not the alternative if people actually did listen to the advice of health officials. And I’m not talking about the health officials who have monetary gains from going with the narrative forced on us by the mainstream media. I’m talking about health officials who are taking their Hippocratic Oath seriously and genuinely looking out for the good of the general population, despite being in a position to be ostracised by doing so.I don’t need to think differently. The way I think is just fine.
- June1952Member@FLClover - we have lockdowns but the alternative is covid - know which one I'd prefer.
Suggesting going against the advice of health officials (advice not given and taken lightly) is stupidity.
If you lived in areas affected by the recent travellers who just did their own thing you might think differently.