@Zoffiel - I need to find a way to believe that it will not change my character either. I sit with curiosity and doubt - when the mission of treatment is to destroy the tumour, does it not break down other parts of you? change you?
i went for a walk today and watched people around me - I noticed two things a) people avoid making contact (maybe my choice of bandanas or scarves don’t appeal to them 😜)
and b) how differently I do the walk thing now. Yes, I can still walk but I’ve lost my ability to walk with confidence, strength and energy, to walk kms without concern. To interact with strangers and not so strangers. Covid only adds to the challenge.
“Gritty brutal dehumanising shitfest” I will borrow your spot on description (with your permission) to come up with a visual to match the words 😁 x
