When I was first diagnosed I went through all the emoitions you have listed @flclover and @arpie. I wasn't advised to have my husband attend appointment he was having trouble finding parking. I said I would go alone as I wasn't expecting to be long. After surgeon said the words breast cancer I don't remember much else. A breast care nurse came into the room and chatted with me. She gave me a pack of information and handed me bcna flyer and suggested I have a look at it. When I was brave enough to have a look I read nearly every post I think. It took me a while before I posted a comment. I was so grateful for the many members who answered my questions and fears. Just knowing there was someone else who understood how I was feeling and that my fears were real without telling me to think positive or have a juice cleanse.
I have made life long friends with members who helped me through some days I needed a helping hand or even lending an ear. I'm so grateful for the generosity of older members who give up their time to help newbies. @arpie if there was a badge for miss congeniality of bcna it would be you. I also like the hug emoji that can send another member a warm and fuzzy to support them so they know they are not alone.