Oh me too, about not being able to say "I have cancer" even writing it here is surreal.
I was out with some friends this afternoon and didn't tell them because A) I don't have any other news, dates, treamtent etc and B) the more I say it the more real it is and I don't think I'm ready for that yet. C) not sure I know how to deal with other peoples feelings about it
I am giving myself until I have a treatment plan, or something, before I am telling my wider circle of friends/family/work. (My manager knows as I've been off having appointments)