Hello @Livo
Welcome to this club no lady ever wanted to join. You will receive a lot of support from ladies here. There are not many on-line at the minute but you will receive lots of responses.
You are not alone, we have all felt the apprehension you are feeling at the minute. Take one step at a time. Have someone attend appointments with you so they can take the notes as your brain will be in overdrive and you probably won't take it all in. Make a list of questions and take that with you and don't leave until you have the answers. No question is silly or unimportant.
Use this site as you need at any time - come on to vent or query, whatever you need. We are here for you.
Thinking of you and sending hugs as you begin along this sometimes scary pathway.
Anne <3