@viking1 I’m obviously not ready to die yet. When my brain tumour was diagnosed I started RE-reading “you can heal your life” by Louise Hay. I’d read it many times before when hospitalised with mental illness after ECT at 17 after my Mum died. Each time I’d reread the book I developed a deeper understanding of the lessons the book was teaching me. So knowing the tumour was growing I decided to use the back section of her book where she lists diseases/illnesses and where or how they came to us and then an affirmation for us to use to undo the disease. I made little cards with the affirmations on them and placed them on the fridge, mirror, in my purse etc. then I made a tape in my voice thanking the tumour for coming to teach me something new. If you read the book you’ll see each section starts with “In the world where I live all is perfect whole and complete” and I continued with several sections of her book and did a visualisation of the cerebral fluid, being thicker than baby oil with a rainbow effect like oil on water, coming up into my brain and breaking down the tumour and washing it away. I played this 30/45minute tape every night as I went to sleep. I was scared stiff the tumour would leave me unable to walk, speak and/or ??? First found tumour in Aug 99 - many tests, specislists, chemo meds to shrink & finally surgery to remove March 2000. When I came out of sugary I got visits from theatre staff & notes saying it was like magic in the operating theatre that day. The “energy” was noticeable by the staff and one even said it was like there were angels in there.
Fortunately im able to disassociate so when im
facing surgery I leave my body till after. I’ve kearn d a lot from my medical history. Doctors make mistakes. It’s tour body, AFL questions snd where possible ALWAYS get a second opinion. With my brain tumour my first neurologist surgeon made a wrong diagnosis so I got two more. The first was peeling my skin from hairline snd going in behind my eyes. Dr Charlie TEO agreed with the Brisbane surgeon who went up through my nose to remove. Lesson trust your gut & get 2nd opinion.
The other thing I’ve done is read as much about “it” (the op/disease) as possible. Be informed. Ask questions.
I use guided meditations a lot snd relaxation and practice mindfulness at times.
When im overwhelmed and none of this Is working I talk to someone, drink wine and/or hide in bed and go to sleep to get away from my racing thoughts.
I’m hoping you’ll get something from this.
Msg me if you’d like more info on guided meditations or anything. I’ve spent 50yrs tried yoga, doing therapy of one kind or another and have been volunteering with Lifeline as a telephone counsellor, an advisory council member with Qld Voice, Gold Coast Medicare Local now Gold Coast Primary Health Network and Days for Girls so my life is fulfilled by giving back - it makes me feel much more warm & fuzzy than any paid employment I’ve ever had.
I’ve been seeing a psychiatrist for years and on antidepressants & now a mood stabiliser and that’s kept me ‘?sane? I’ve done heaps of therapy and tried yoga, tai chi, Pilates, walking, dancing, feldenkrais, massages, aromatherapy, - try anything - everything. Sewing, knitting, crochet, gardening, swimming. Whatever works for you. And sometimes do nothing if that’s what is best for you at that time.
Hopethat wasn’t overload.