Lumpectomy OP On Tues

Hey GillianWelcome to you, my luvly but so sorry you have to be here in such a precious time of your married life.   Oooooooh yeah you guys are going to be tested but if you have gone down the road of marriage then you have already made the commitment for better or worse and there is a lot worse out there than a BC diagnosis believe it or not.  It will test you let alone test your marriage but after BC you will be able to take on anything life throws your way that is for sure.  It made me in to a better person, someone who cared for others and had feelings and was strong and committed and honest and found my heart which has been the best thing to come from this whole BC journey.  I don't have a problem saying journey cause that is what it is, smooth, bumpy or rough road, we make it and come out the other side better for it.It won't be easy and isn't easy for any of us but you have lots of love and support around you so that will help you thru.I still put on a brave face and I am 1 1/2 years down the track from my original diagnosis so it just becomes a way of life.  If you want to scream find a secluded spot grab a pillow and scream, yell all the prefanaties (spelling) you like, kick and buck and give that pillow everything it deserves and then just move on.  Take it hour by hour, don't try day by day as that is toooo hard but hour by hour you will be able to manage.  You will understand what I mean as time goes on.I am so glad Daina has told you about the information available to you thru BCNA, it is a fantastic group to be a part of and I am sure you will appreciate the love, support, advice, place to vent scream yell and whatever else is necessary, you can do it all here. We don't judge cause we fully understand cause we have been down a road you are able to travel.If you have any questions you need to ask then just ask away and if you are lucky enough you will be able to connect with someone who is going on a similar journey to you so you can be there for each other but if not there is lots of us pink sisters that will help you every day.Wishing you love, patience, understanding and all those things this BC diagnosis makes us pluck out of the deep dark crevices of the body we live in each day.Lots of love, Mich xoxoxo

Hi Gillian. Good luck with your op on Tuesday. Mine is booked for Monday next week. I agree with your emotional experiences so far.. I felt guilty about being angry and sad that it happened to me then happy to find test results showing no additional cancer cells. What a rollercoster and all within a week. I am a bit of a control freak so to have this happen and be unable to do anything to stop it is hard to handle but because of all the amazing support from nurses, doctors and my husband I am learning to let go and take advise from the professionals. I still find it hard to accept that this is not just some small lump that can be whipped out and then forget about it and to put myself in to the category of 'breast cancer survivor' -(hopefully)..but slowly I accept that I am among one of the special breed and start to look at this as a positive experience and treat it as a lesson to appreciate life and family. Sucks that it takes something like this to get me thinking along those lines but until you experience the shock of being told you have cancer in real life it just isn't real...thanks for listening and I look forward to hearing good news post op.