First Day of Chemo
I've been wanting to post in this group just to introduce myself and have a look over some previous posts, but I feel this has been the first time I have really been able to stop and think about tomorrow. My first day of Chemo, and I'm a tad scared.
I feel like the last month has been a blur, and I have just been taken along for the ride. I know everyone must feel like this, but for once I would just like to stop and not talk about Breast Cancer for just one minute, or tell people that "no" I really am feeling fine.
I found a lump on Christmas Eve. We'd just finished all the Santa fun things and I was putting on my PJs and then I felt it. After not being able to get any scans etc done over the Christmas/ New Year break I eventually had a mammogram/ultrasound/biopsy done. I was then referred to a surgeon had a lumpectomy and lymph node clearance done, and then my mastectomy last Tuesday. I'm 40 and have 2 girls aged 7 and 5. My 5 year old started school on the Monday. I haven't even really been able to enjoy her first week with her. Kids are great though, and she seems to have breezed through it with the help of her big sister.
So tomorrow will be the first of my 4 AC chemo sessions. Followed by 12 weeks of Paxiltaxel and then Hercepton for 9 months after that. I was hoping to get a good nights sleep tonight, but I am sooo nervous. I have heard so many stories of being sick. All I want to be able to do is get up to see my girls to school and I was hoping to be able to go back to work 2 days a week, to try and relieve some of the financial strain, and to keep some normality. I'm hoping it won't be too bad.
I feel a little guilty for not having read through some of the other posts first. However, just writing this down, I can have a little cry and come to terms with it a little more myself. I'm just feeling a little overwhelmed at the moment. Between, bra fittings, doctors appointments, last minute dental check ups etc, I can finally rest. I hope.
I have a wig lady coming on Friday, but I was wondering if anyone could recommend a site that sells modern scarves/headwear. I find all the information I have been given is for turbans etc, which is just not me. They look extremely old fashioned. Any advice would be much appreciated or anything that just helped you get through the next few weeks. Thanks so much.
Linda