Coping with emotions
No doubt the rollercoaster of emotions hits us all , and finding ways to pick up after a melt down which comes and goes is becoming easier. I allow myself 24 hours when I hit bottom and then push back up as I know the emotional exhaustion makes it harder for me to stay strong physically and mentally . The days when newly diagnosed , to the many test , surgery and the news just goes from bad to worse , getting hopes up and finding out its worse then expected is horrible . So I learned to expect the worst so that there was no emotional shock to the system , and if good news comes then its party time . Being prepared is better than just dealing as it comes for me anyway . so after 2 months of back and forth , I am only at the certainty that I am having a double mastecomy and auxilliary removal in a few weeks, once pathology comes back yet again, the rest will again be determined and it has changed many times ! I ahve been told no chemo only ovary supression and aromotase inhibitor, then told maybe chemo , no radiation still full hormone supression . So I guess I have now resigned to the usual wait and see again , once the final pathology after the major surgury is though . Today I hit bottom as the mastecomy is only a few weeks away, and though I though I was prepared it hit me . so after falling in a heap in tears and anger and despair, I sat in the sun and wrote this little poem as a way to cope and it picked me up and I fee strong again ...well for today that is . Just thought I would share and maybe finding a way to express yourself can help you too. The I posted a status on face book :
Dear boobies ,
In a few weeks I say goodbye ,
You’ve served well for 36 years
You’ve nourished my kids
And been annoying tits
You’ve also bought me pleasure
And been a great radar for the weather
Bra shopping was arghh
Swimwear was farrrkk
A part of my natural femininity , my womanhood ,
Proudly a part of me you stood ...
But your trying to kill me now
So please take a bow
It’s time for you to go
No more little cancer seeds will you sow
I will stand proud and tall
Without you I will not fall ,
You do not define me ,
Sexy and feminine I will always be ...
I don’t need you any longer
And saying goodbye will only make me stronger .
At the end of the day your just flesh
And I am more important and I think I’m pretty spesh...
I have many dreams yet to be fulfilled ,
So fight you with all I have ,I will !
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so on your bike little boobies of mine
It’s time for me to fight ,to live yet a long time ...
Poem written by me 
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To the 1 in 8 women facing the same battle , and the many yet to come ...
Let’s hope and pray and support that in time it will be a 100% curable disease .
Stand tall and proud , no matter the loss of your boobies, and the pain and struggle of chemo , radiation, and the medicine needed to take for many years and it’s side effects . Show our children we are warriors and nothing can beat us down .
Though we allow our moments and times of despair , please remember that love will always win . For ourselves , for our families and partners for our friends and fellow women and men .
We are beautiful , not for what we look like but for who we are inside , our strength , determination , love and our light .#breastcancerawareness #fuckcancer #iamwomanhearmeroar#warriorsurvivor
Peace , love and light always
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Dear Tania B
It’s an impressive therapy poem.
Good luck with your surgery.
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@TaniaB - that is an awesome poem and approach to your surgery ......
Wishing you all the best for your forthcoming surgery & treatment afterwards .....
We are here if you need anyone to chat to, commiserate with, laugh with or just hang out with .... not question is too silly to ask!!
xxx
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Your poem brought tears to my eyes, beautiful. Wishing you the best for your treatments xxxx0
