It's been a while

MandaMoo · July 2011

Thanks for the support everyone. I have been a little hesitant getting on here - stupidly probably - but to me what I have been through is a realisation of all of our fears and I didn't want to bring anyone down.

I have found sifting through the information tough - I think before the change in my diagnosis I was pretty passive - accepting the odds as being pretty good and putting my life in my dr's hands - but even when they try their best it sometimes isn't enough. Now I realise that I must be the driver of this bus and go with what feels right to me based on the information I've been exposed to.

I am loving the meditation - I am still learning but it takes some discipline and the support of the family to give me time and space to do it. My body needs to heal and my mind needs to be in the right space to allow that to happen. I have been overwhelmed with lots of worry and negative thoughts and the meditation brings my body and mind into a much calmer space.

With the juices I am spending up a fortune on organic vegetables. I mainly juice veges in a variety of mixes - carrot, carrot and celery, carrot, celery and beetroot and I have a delicious green juice daily - with barley grass, celery, capsicum, parsley, spinach - whatever greens I have around. I feel I get an energy boost from them and find them quite tasty too.

I have given more thought to the complementary side of things and think I am going to go with Chinese Medicine. I have been given quite a bit of hope of managing this disease by my oncologist and I feel comfortable with working with someone who will help balance my body so my immune system can kick in and start healing once the cancer cells are dead.

It's a big job and taking up much of my time but I am focused on getting well and healing.

I have to be honest and tell you that I don't feel strong or courageous - I have been very anxious and worried but can only see a way forward that is focused on being here for my little family.

Love you guys - thank you!

Amanda xx

p.s. The bridge climb is awesome and a great goal - I have always been very frightened of heights and flying but after doing a visualisation with a counsellor before I went, I can honestly say I felt none of the things I normally do when I am flying or up high (very close to panic attacks) - I just enjoyed every moment! Steal the idea as much as you like - definitely worth it!

Leonie Moore · July 2011

Love your work!!!!!!!XLeonie

traxx65 · July 2011

Hi Amanda,

Qi Gong is fantastic and you can do it anywhere and even a few minutes helps. I do Qi Gong, Tai Chi and Karate and all of them have helped me to remain focussed and have taught me to recognise my low times and pick myself up before they get bad. I usually see my oncologist on the same day I have karate, so when I have had bad news, it has been a great outlet, for me, (not the other person that I am sparring).

It is great to find a balance that suits you in the way that you like to treat your cancer. My oncologist is open to any discussion and we have had chats about the worthwhile stuff and the not so good stuff.

There is a lot to think about and do, but we just have to find our way of working through it all.

Take care and all the best.

Tracey

FranP · July 2011

Hi lady just letting you know i have been thinking of you everryday and even though i am a semi retired catholic ha ha i have been praying for you and asking our guardian angels to help and give you courage and strength. you underestimate your self, you are one heck of a strong woman and i look up to you ,you are a huge inspiration to us all.