A boost to my self confidence

ScorpionQueen

 From my Facebook blog...


Today I am not only feeling good......*shhh not too loud!*....I'm feeling happy on the inside too!

As many of you know I have always struggled with the chest I was "blessed" with..... I hid in baggy clothes, mainly because my true size would never get over my boobs to begin with......I never wore a swimming costume either...I used to sit and hide in a t-shirt if I went to the beach....and NEVER wore anything sleeveless or with thin straps.....button up blouses? Forget it!

As I got older and a bit more comfortable ( not completely) with myself...I learned to embrace my God given curves...I finally found a style that, let's say that "agreed" with my ample bosom....I found Pin Up.....This style of dressing gave me untold confidence, something I never had when it came to my appearance....

Just before Christmas last year I finally found and purchased some swimwear that actually fitted! Then, in a cruel twist, Breast Cancer came knocking and I never got to wear those new swimmers I bought, they sat in the cupboard, new with tags, forgotten....

Oh dear, had the universe heard my silent wishes for smaller boobs? Had it heard my cries when I could not do those buttons up? I know, it's not my fault I got breast cancer, but the thoughts do run through your head!

So today I pulled that swimwear out and after discussion with the store I bought it from....returned them! I went to the lovely shop I have had to travel to for years to get my elusive HH cup size and handed over the very last thing that was from the "old" me.

I recieved my store credit and quickly had a look around...I found myself going for the styles I am used to....then the light came on! I don't have that limitation anymore! I looked excitedly at all the prettier options I NOW have! Silly right?, getting excited over bra choice! 

OK, It will be a while yet before I can purchase my correct size, but I left the store feeling happier.....I noticed a Millers store close by and went in for a browse.....usually much doesn't appeal to me from there, but at the moment with my hot flashes and smaller chest I need tops that are smaller and breezier....So I found a sleeveless, yes sleeveless! one and another blousy type....I hate trying things on at the best of times so I took a gamble.....I went home not feeling confident they would look good at all....

Once home, I tried them on..... I waited for the heavens to open and beam it's glorious rays down on me while a chorus of Hallelujah was being shouted at the mirror! The smile on my face was huge.....the buttons....those things that would protest and bulge on the old me....did up with room to spare!  

Happy dance! Happy dance! My daughter even said I could probably go down a size, but me being me, and the fact I can't really tolorate anything too tight at the moment, said I was happy with this for now.....

So through  the gloom of this year, a bright light has shone down on me....warmed my soul and made me feel better than I have in a long while.....I now have to hit the reset button and learn to love my 'new' curves.... 

That tunnel is getting shorter......I can feel the warmth of that light....I am nearly done with all of this.....and I can't wait!

Happy weekend all!

Xx

mum2jj

Well done you. That post bought a big smile to my face. Enjoy your new clothes.
Paula xx

socoda

Yayyyyyy!!! Nothing silly about getting excited over bra choice particularly when there are sooooo many truly beautiful bras available. Just think soon you will look forward to shopping and trying things on, exciting times. Xx Cath

Bluewren

Hi enjoy your new you and the way you are feeling right now. Nice to have some happiness. Happy weekend to you too.

Bluewren

 enjoy. Maz. Xx  sorry posted before I finished.

primek

It's great to be able to look st the plus sides of this journey.

InkPetal

Yay! So not silly at all I'd be just as excited!

rowdy

Yay doing happy dance for you. It s always great to have those feel good moments xxx

Melhay

What a beautiful post!
Keep embracing those precious joyous moments & your new look xx

prudencerose

What a wonderful story! As hard as it is at times to find them, there are positives along our journey. Power to you!