Feeling like a failure
Hi. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in both breasts, two weeks ago and am heading in for surgery on the 13 February. I am having a bilateral mastectomy. To be honest l am not overly concerned. I am very over weight and have very big heavy breasts. I have absolutely no self esteem when it comes to my body anyway so it is not a major thing physically. It probably sounds ridiculous but it will probably be an improvement as l do suffer with bad neck and shoulder pain with the heaviness of my chest. I am a Christian and have a strong trust in God but I am feeling a bit lonely and like a bit of a failure. After a big day of diagnosing or meeting with surgeons it is hard coming home to an empty house and having no one to share it with. Thank you for letting me pour my heart out as l don't feel like l can do that with my friends.
I'm not hideously disfigured...
I had a left side mastectomy on Tuesday. I have been really scared to look in the mirror. Finally worked up the courage today. I am ok, surprised myself....still me. Next step check up on Tuesday. Then more waiting to see if I need further treatment. I really want a bra now, but will wait till I'm less tender. My husband loves me, my teen boys laugh with me. Learning to love and accept the new me.
Reclaim Your Curves - Sydney Support Lunch Sunday 25th August
Hello! Our next lunch is on Sunday 25th August at our usual venue of Dragonfly Cafe Eden Gardens, Macquarie Park 12 noon to 3pm. We get together and chat all things reconstruction and/or breast cancer/coping/surviving etc etc etc. Please feel free to invite anyone that you may have met that would find our group helpful.
