Seroma post-op

@afraser, I've often wondered that too; how crap life must have been that being sliced, diced, drained, poisoned, irradiated, burnt to a crisp, neutered, punctured, and scared shitless can be an improvement. Sheesh, maybe I do have something to be grateful for--a wild wide life for 43 years before the poo bit the fan and some pretty good times in the intervening years. Mxx

Being "grateful" for cancer does rather beg the question of what one's life was like beforehand. Most people would prefer not to have ticked that box at all, and those that have been through it have very different experiences. As we hear ad infinitum, cancer is not one thing and people's experience of it is not one single definable thing either. Some of us have been able to get through with not too much physical or mental damage, perhaps a bit more self knowledge and appreciate years of living that just might never have happened. Personally, I view any variation on the "pain/misery/etc is sent to make us better people" line as insult added to injury!! 

Yes, I keep waiting for this enlightenment to descend upon me but it seems to be a little elusive.  I think that I've had enough shit in my life that I shouldn't have to deal with this as well (listen to the neck of her). 

I'm so sorry @"Annie C". Everyone.

I shake my head in bemusement when I read about people saying they're grateful for their cancer, that their lives are better now. I mean, good on them, but there's no way my life is better for my cancer, my sister's cancer, my sister-in-law's cancer... What is this serendipitous nirvana they have achieved? Why does it elude me?

I get that one in two of the western world will get some cancer in their lives. I'm not so oblivious to think that it wouldn't be me. I wish it hadn't happened to me at 51. But recognise that it's better than 41. I'm also keenly aware that I am NED, when many are not.

If wishes were horses then beggars would ride eh? I hope we all find some anger free contentment somewhere along the line.

I just I just read this thread (as I have an annoying small seroma in my axilla) and now I'm crying because I want my old life back too 😔

Yep ...l don’t we all!!  :( xxx

RP

@kmakm
Me too.
My old life was really good. I lost so much.

@Mjheke I want my old life back so much.

Thanks @kmakm
I will ask, and i’ll let  you know. They are discussing my case at the hospital cancer panel this Wednesday too, so hopefully will have more insight after that. 
@Sister , I got mine form best and less and they are great, they had lots to choose from, I got 4 different colours and with lace. I wear mine to bed and they are so much more comfortable than the post op bra I had been given. I also got a more supportive one that I can wear when going out or with close fitting clothes-playtex brand. I also got a really nice black lacy(still post op), which will be good when we go out as it has a more formed cup. Felt so good getting rid of the front closing ones!
My seroma is larger than ever, it gets very painful towards the end of the day, it tracks along the top of my breast into my axilla. It is so large and uncomfortable now that 6he only sleep option is my back. I think at night it must drain to the back of my axilla, then as the day progresses move around to the breast again. It was so uncomfortable last night, I took stronger pain relief than I had been managing with an had a good cry. I wanted my old life back. 😞 I really didn’t want to do this anymore...

I was given the soft form after surgery but I think you can get them from shops (online or other) that sell mastectomy garments.  The knitted knockers are made by community service groups around Australia but I was lucky enough that one of our lovely online community (thanks @onemargie) sent them to me - I still use them at times.  BTW, I got my ah bra knockoffs from Kmart - $15 for 2, I think.