You have been through sooo much in the last year.So much surgery must take it's toll on you physically.The breast cancer journey is also a very emotional one.You need time to recover from all this so don't feel guilty for not working.When I got breast cancer a second time I decided to leave work and move house.That was a few years ago now and I've felt guilty now and again but mostly I have no regrets.I volunteer for BCNA and run a local breast cancer support group.I enjoy an art group each week and spend time with family and friends.I feel more content and am slowly gaining confidence in my health again.It took about 18mths for my hair to look like it used to before chemo.So I guess I felt more like "me" again.Just take this time for yourself- rest when you need to and do the things that bring you joy.You may find it helpful to join a bc support group in your area.I'm sure your mojo will come back eventually.You'll have 12 months to build your health and strength back up and you'll feel more confident.Sending hugs,Tonya xx