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Kiwi_Angel's avatar
8 years ago

Fatigue Sux

This is the bit that I am finding the hardest to deal with and the fact that I have only had my first cycle and that it could get worse terrifies me. I have always been such an active person and I feel like a weak kitten at the moment. I got up this morning, went for a walk, popped into work for about 15 minutes and then did the groceries. Had to come home and sit down cause I was exhausted - so frustrating. I know there are a lot of people worse off than me so I should stop whinging but just having a poor me moment.

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  • I did too much yesterday and today I've paid for it.
  • I'm doing very little here @"Kiwi Angel" I'm taking it very easy. All I've done today is 1 1/2 hour gardening , by then my heart was racing and I needed to sit down.  Then prepared dinner and clean up afterwards. That was it, other than a little pottering. I'm doing my gardening instead of taking a daily walk. Now is  the time we listen to our bodies and be gentle on ourselves. Take care xxxx
  • Thanks everyone. I am readjusting my plans to work a little as I know for me days 4-6 will most likely be bed days and if I need to take extra time off I will. My boss is already prepared for me having lots of rest breaks at work. I’m such a stubborn person and I think that has it good and bad points in this situation. Just have to do what I can do and not beat myself up about it. I was planning to work the Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday after chemo on Monday but I now know the Thursday will not be at all possible so I’m gonna schedule so I have from Thursday off and then go back on Tuesday the following week - I understand that his might change too as time goes in. Thanks for all your advice ladies - it amazing to have such support and experience from people who have/are going through it. Everything u say makes sense I just need to wrap my stubborn little brain around it xoxooxoxx
  • I now know that I will spend at least 48 hours pretty much in bed between Days 4-6
  • It is very disappointing when your plans get blown to the shithouse. 
    The thing is, this is not something where trying harder, getting over it or sucking it up will make a difference. If it makes you sick and tired, it makes you sick and tired.
    We all hope we will be one of the exceptions who retains a degree of normal through chemo. I pulled that off during BC version 1 in 2006. BC version 2 has knocked the stuffing out of me.
    Go easy on yourself. If you have to go to Plan B, just do it before you end up being forced to. You don't need to give up, just acknowledge that you are in a complicated situation where being strong, fit and determined may not make that much difference. Give yourself permission to make concessions and don't feel bad about it. Keep plodding. Mxxx
  • Yep totally sucks. I never spent so much time on my bed in my entire life as I did while doing chemo. Let's just say Netflix kept me company lol . 
  • I was devasted to realise I wasn't going to be able to work. I was completely wiped out by chemo. But it really does go quickly. It is the pits. Do what you can when you deel good  and rest when you don't. 
  • @"Kiwi Angel" You totally get to have poor me moments. This is the place to vent about it because we pretty much all have them here and completely get it!

    Fatigue does suck. I loathe that feeling of calling on my body to give me more and getting a big fat no. Unfortunately we just have to roll with the punches that life gives us and BC is a big punch that puts us on the canvas. Try to be kind to yourself. You have to go through this to get better so focus on that goal. Take pleasure in what you can do, and pace yourself so you don't overdo it.

    Being a Monday TC girl like me, you might be interested in knowing that when I had this same whinge to my breast care nurse, she said that I was feeling tired at this point because my bone marrow was busy making new blood cells to replace my depleted reserves.

    Hang in there. K xox