Still crying

Thank you I really appreciate your comments , love and support. I know I just need to get out of this dark space and start living...I hope tomorrow will be a better day xxx

I am so sorry to hear of this diagnosis, @Angelo - my thoughts are with you and your family as you get over this shock.   I am a real sook myself, so can burst into tears at the drop of a hat .... so I asked family & friends NOT to be sympathetic or I would just blub - but that jokes & anything funny would be good.  12 months later & the jokes are still coming.  Sometimes it is dark humour - but anything that can raise a smile or a laugh is good for the spirit.

Here's one lot!  Feel free to add any to it!
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/discussion/19116/friday-funnies#latest

We found some really funny Xmas ones too!
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/discussion/20086/christmas-funnies-put-them-up-here-for-a-laugh#latest

I hope your work colleagues & bosses are flexible & able to give you time off as required with the chemo side effects, appointments etc ..... Deep Breaths, take one day at a time ..... 

As @Sister has said - you are allowed any reaction you want.  

Al the best for your ongoing treatment xx

This is a normal response to a devastating diagnosis. The 19th December wasn't long ago. It's okay to cry. It's okay to feel scared, angry and sad...all those things. It's completely normal. I would be more worried if you had slspped on the happy smile and just got on with life without a second thought.
Use this time to think of the necessary things you might need to do. You will move through this phase eventually and carry on with your new normal life. If sadness and tears are overwhelming in weeks to come then it would be a good idea to talk with your supporting/treating team and/or seek some counselling. Kath x

@angelo I'm so very sorry to hear that.  I think you are allowed any reaction you want.

@angelo
Shock of diagnosis is not easy to cope with, let alone recurrence,  coupled with the silly season new drugs and their side effects along with tears and so it goes......
Monday for return to work is a few days away yet
Have you joined any of the groups within the forum.  The forum is public whereas the groups are private.
Hopefully these next few days will bring some relaxation time and maybe extended leave if needed as it takes time to absorb where you are at and find the energy to fight it
Take care

@iserbrown
sent via PM when Angelo joined the forum 
@Blossom1961
I am only Soldiercrab on BCNA  lol 

I know Angelo will get support from our forum as that is what we all do support each other. 

@Angelo. It is rough finding out that you have mets. I have been living with mets for 18 months now. Like you, I  have also had stage 1. That was 16 years ago.
This time around, I  have had 15 lots of I.V. Paclitaxel, 8 months of Xeloda, and I  am now on my third lot of Palbociclib/Letrozole. 
Having mets, I  have realised who my best friends are. I know that they love me. 
Some of my family have been great, especially my husband, my two sisters,  my son, daughter-in-law and my in-laws. My two brothers don't seem to accept that I  have a terminal illness. In fact, I  never hear from them. 
Cry as much as you want. No-one can really know how you feel. 
But, don't give in to this wretched disease. 

@iserbrown I love the way you say OUR soldiercrab. That is so this forum. We all belong. @Angelo This is the place for you to be heard and understood.

Our @soldiercrab has a welcome pack that will help you navigate the site

Anyone would be shocked by that diagnosis, it's completely understandable. However shaky you feel, you are are still in the best position to know what to do, in the short term at least. Some time to yourself to let rip with the frustration and unfairness of it all may be very useful. But sometimes it can help to be with people too. See how you feel by Monday. It's a lot to get used to, and a lot unknown. Don't expect too much from yourself too soon. Best wishes.