Kmakm, I feel too that I have learnt to live in the moment and for today. In a weird way I feel my happiness factor is higher now than before bc. I feel much more loved, my kids don’t go past me without giving me a hug, my marriage is better, and I feel more that each day I feel well and able us a gift that I didn’t truly appreciate before. Mostly I push away the fear of what might be coming but as I said before, I don’t make plans too far ahead.
Our medical team are wonderful, and they see cancer everyday, but they aren’t living it and so they really don’t understand.