I can't connect with my diagnosis..

Thanks @Ellamary98 - I've had to learn to be a lot kinder to people who are just trying to help - LOL - it still throws me when I get a text on the day of chemo to wish me well and I think - whoa, that friend is keeping track of when I have Chemo! On the one hand, it's so nice and I really do appreciate it but there's that little part of me that just wants to do it all quietly in my own way with no fuss. I've definitely put a few people's noses out of joint by not being needy - then again I've been touched by the soup arriving on my doorstep, the lovely gifts of scarves, books and flowers and the cards. 
Ultimately I know that everyone means well and comes from a good place, with good intentions. 

Good luck with your scan next month - you've definitely got the right attitude, which will influence everyone around you.