I can't connect with my diagnosis..

@Eastmum , I hear you! I like to keep personal things close to my chest, which makes me uncomfortable announcing health issues. It was such a relief to be over the drama of bc first time around. Everyone was so wonderfully supportive, but I hated having people in my home all the time, and I felt like a goodwill project. In addition, my husband (who is super-private) felt like he had lost me to everyone else ( I have a large family), and subsequently felt a bit hopeless. Also, we were trying to protect our children, and some people arrived at the door with meals or cakes, openly crying!  This is why I dread telling friends and family, but you are right- I just need to lay down the rules and take the drama out of it. It is true that people will generally follow your lead, and I have already told our kids to ignore everybody else and just listen to us. Having said all that, that year was a time in my life when I felt most loved- it was just overwhelming.
 I have decided to wait anyway, until I have another scan next month and there is a firmer treatment plan. Like you, I like to research it all first and feel a bit more in control. I've decided that I will blow everyone's preconceptions of metastatic breast cancer out of the water!
Good luck with your treatment. I hope that it is going well for you and that your recovery is smooth as possible. Soak up all the love and attention that comes your way- you need it to get you through! xx <3