Thank you everyone I really really appreciate you trying to help me. I have seen lots of naturopaths no help unfortunately. Cannabis oil I immediately went on when I was diagnosed and went down that path instead of chemo and unfortunately for me and my great faith it would heal me naturally it then spread rapidly. It didn't help . The comments about the oncologists are so true I contacted Roche the drugs creater 5 months ago and they were so concerned they emailed my doctor as they wanted to work with her to try to rectify my issue before it got worse as it is now and even more distressing to me the emails and phone calls went unanswered . It simply was not a priority .I'm afraid. So here I am right now as always afraid of the night to come. I'm so tired I can not function properly and neither can my family who I keep awake and feel bad for not being able to help. I have radically changed my vegetarian diet so much it' horrible to try to eat the blandest food imaginable to try to help but it is just my bodies way of saying not for me. Last night I felt like someone had poured acid on my skin and felt if there had been a bridge next to me HELLO over I would have went ......i have to face facts here no one can help me because it' simply my own personal hell......
