Vent away.. this place is great for that.. I also understand the burning desire to understand how did this happen.. I have never really asked why me.. It just never really occurred to me as when I saw how many others were sitting in the same situation I knew it was a mega question. I searched for quite a while looking for information that explained things so i could explain it when asked and all I really gained was more questions.. No family history, ate ok, exercised ok. breast fed my son, only had a few xtra kgs. I believe that in time as the cells and genes are cracked open even more perhaps they will find more out but it is the reason that finding how to prevent and the holy grail - a cure is so very hard because BC just will not play by any rules.
Some days I feel as if I had stood on the street, was standing on one leg with my tongue sticking out and right at that moment saw a black cat walk under a ladder which fell and smashed a mirror !!! and yes, that is certainly tongue in cheek. These days I have decided to leave many questions behind as I just cannot find an answer and work on other things.. As I turtle it is my duty now to share my knowledge to anyone who will listen and hopefully spark more discussion and eventually answers to the huge pile of unanswered questions that are sitting in the corner waiting for a friend.
hugs to you. Sharon
