Hi Marianne, You've had so much to deal with. Each thing by itself is daunting let alone all together. I had a dog for 19 years that I had to have put down as her body was starting to fail her in a big way and I couldn't bear watching her in pain. The grief was huge and I never wanted another pet. I did however agree to look after my niece's little Australian terrier when she was travelling and despite my best attempts to remain neutral that little dog wormed its way into my heart with its incredible personality. It made me realise I was not being disloyal in any way shape or form to my own beloved dog I was simply opening my heart to a new pet and the happiness that pet gave me. Don't put off getting your new cat because you are grieving - that new cat is waiting to comfort and love you and it has your name written on its heart!!! Xx Cath