birthday
Hi all,
Its my daughters 8th birthday this weekend. Usually for me its a happy time. This year is my first with ABC. Now its a scary time with me wondering if I will see her grow up. I feel I will fail her if i dont as I know I mean the world to her. I am trying to not let my fears ruin it for me but I am having a hard time. I feel my family is not as supportive as I need also. I have realized they will never change so i must not expect anything else so I am not continually dissapointed. I am trying to malke my friends my family now so I have a network and I am very lucky that I have them. I am off for scans in oct on soft tissues my first since treatment began. I am sure this is adding to my worries right now and yes I am giving myself all sorts of tumours. (crazy hey ) even though therre is no reason to think i have ,treatment is showing all signs of working. My blood markers are down bone scan showed improvements and no new spots but my silly mind is playing tricks on me.
Thats it for now I hope after getting that off my chest I can enjoy this birthday weekend