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arpie
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4 years ago

Scanxiety - does it ever REALLY go away?

Does Scanxiety ever really disappear?   I think not.

It is 4 years in Nov since my ILC tumours were found, by accident, by my GP - as the rural BreastScreen Bus screens totally missed it ..... TWICE.  Rural breastscreen buses do not have 3D mammograms - only 2D ones - and they are unlikely to pick up Invasive Lobular Cancer (that does not present as a 'lump' ....) and any cancer is almost impossible to 'see' in those with Dense Breast Tissue.  If you don't know what breast tissue type you have, get your Surgeon/Oncologist to tell you - as Breast Screen NSW refuses to do so.

If you are able to pull up a pic of your Mammograms .... you'll actually SEE if you have dense breast tissue, as much of the breast will showing as 'white' (rather than fairly clear) and as cancer also shows up as 'white' ..... the dense breast tissue hides the cancer.

What followed was 2 years of anxiety as I had a recall on my first anniversary scans, which luckily, were benign .... but being rural, things all take longer to happen.  Altho I had my surgery within days of seeing the surgeon (10 days after my diagnosis on Jan 5th was confirmed) it had taken 2 months to get to the diagnosis, with my biopsy being done between Xmas & New Year.  The following year, the biopsy was on Xmas Eve .... so 2 x Christmases/New Years - totally stuffed!!  For this reason, I brought my scan dates a month early to October - so that if anything needed doing (ie biopsy) I wouldn't be in the Xmas Rush!

SO .... I head north today for my annual Mammogram and Ultrasound (luckily, having the resident specialist breast Cancer Radiographer doing both!)  I'll take hubby with me & will probably even take him into the clinic room with me (if allowed) to keep an eye on him as he has mod-severe dementia.  Otherwise, I'd need to arrange someone to sit with him, if I left him at home.

Up til this morning, I hadn't really 'thought' of the scanxiety .... but then it raised it's ugly head again!   grrrr.   

I am not expecting any adverse results - but with this beast, you just never know! 

I see my Rad Onc next week, also up north - my 2nd last visit to her - next year being Year 5 since detection.

Wish me luck!!
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  • Julez1958's avatar
    Julez1958
    Member
    4 years ago
    Hi @arpie

    Short answer “ no”.

    Long answer:

    One of the later podcasts in the Dr Charlotte Tottman podcast series on the announcement above “ What you don’t know until you do” was about fear of recurrence and I found it excellent.
    Like you my cancer was lobular , it was not picked up on the breast screen mammogram and had grown to be 5.5 cm before I felt a lump.
    When my breast cancer surgeon said “ lobular cancer is often not picked up in a mammogram” I said “ I wish someone had told me that”.
    I also had a petscan as part of my cancer staging which picked up a very tiny unrelated thyroid cancer ( thyroid since removed and all good) so I have the added tiny voice in my head “ well if there were two cancers don’t things come in threes”?
    The podcast had some  good coping strategies for the fear of recurrence / scanxiety issues.
    Good luck with your results my wishes are with you.

  • Cath62's avatar
    Cath62
    Member
    4 years ago
    Hi @arpie 

    Wishing you the best for today.

     I got  my referral  for my mammogram and ultrasound the other day while at dr. Even the thought of that triggered me. I don't need to go yet. Due January. 

     I went early for my mammogram and ultrasound posttreatment. I was surprised at my reaction for that first one. I wept on the ultrasound table like I have not done. I knew my tears were from the trauma of it all but I couldn't stop. It was so terrifying even though I know there would be no cancer there. How could there after all that treatment I had received.

    The poor lady who did my ultrasound didn't know what to do. She was knew at the place I had been going for the last 18 years. She asked me if I knew how to check my breasts and that was it. I thought it was a stupid question and irrelevant at this time when I was crying my eyes out. 

    When i go for the next one i am going to ask if my husband can come in with me instead of the waiting room. I know he can't come in for the mammogram but hopefully he can for the ultrasound.

    Let us know how you go. Sending you a hug x
  • Afraser's avatar
    Afraser
    Member
    4 years ago
    Good luck @arpie!

    I don’t think scanxiety ever fully goes away but it does get less. I used to have two or three weeks of jitters and phantom twinges, but for my ninth annual mammogram post diagnosis, last week, just a couple of twinges and a bit nervous while waiting (all of 20 minutes!) for the results! Best wishes for everything.