Help i feel like a robot

Hi there @AnonyMS . Its a side effect of no estrogen but the good news is it comes and goes.

I find exercise very helpful in elevating mood. Even just a walk. 

But yeah. I feel like once you are through the initial diagnosis and treatment its just the hard yards of putting up with side effects and having less people to whinge or care about the side effects. I took a list of symptoms (which honestly are cyclic and feel worse each month) to my oncologist who said these ones are nenopause, these from your chemo 3 years ago. No suggestions on how to feel better, im doing well, a lot of people have given up by now, yadayada. See you next year. Next year if you want you can come off exemestane but probably not zolodex. I feel bad for whingeing because it could be a lot worse but people in normal menopause are allowed to whinge and get some sort of support. I think the medical part is limited in survivorship. Maybe they dont know what to do to help as there isnt enough people to compare with. I also want to know what happens to me at 5 years, am i still a cancer patient being mindful all the time or do i get to relax sometime?

Hi @MichelleR - I know how you feel - I've been on exemestane for nearly 4 years now and have been feeling really flat of late. Finding little joy in life, though I have a lot to be grateful for. It didn't occur to me that it might be a side effect of the medication.  It's hard to know whether it's just due to carrying the burden of managing my health, medication, side effects and scans.... it feels never ending and exhausting. Do others feel this way too?

Hi @Michelle_R

Just wanted to belatedly chime in on your fantastic achievement in losing weight and going from OB2 to OB1.

That's a huge achievement!

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A chat with the Helpline at BCNA would be beneficial! 
You sound like you're in a rut of really, how did this happen, is it as good as it  gets!
As @cranky_granny said complain away, we are here to help not judge.
Nattering on the Helpline and or your GP should help put everything into perspective. 
Take care 
Best wishes 

@MicheleR this is the place to come let off steam.  Complain away. Maybe Find somewhere where  you can just scream. Stamp your feet whatever releases the tension.  You can always try to get into your oncologist earlier if it get too much. 

Hi,

I suppose I shouldnt complain as i dont experience a lot of the physical aspects of Ai now provided I exercise. 

Im well, off blood pressure meds, ive lost a tiny bit of weight after an enormous 3 year struggle which is still ongoing ( so now im just obese category 1 rather than category 2- sigh) Blood glucose is up, cholesterol is up.  Triglicerides are  normal. So now Ive had to give up carbs. 

Its just, is this it now? Im 53 next year, if I have to live the rest of my life like this.... Huge quality of life thing really. 

Dont worry, Ill talk to my gp. No, i dont have a breast care nurse, i went through private system. I see my gp once a month for the gosrelin injection (thankfully he bulk bills i just pay for injection) and my onc and breast surgeon once a year. 

Hi there @MicheleR   Lack of emotional responses is scary. Please ring the help line on Monday. They are there for us and can give some good advice.