Scanxiety

Congratulations @Hendrix, such wonderful news! x

Good luck with your mastectomy @Eastmum xx

Hi @Hendrix - so great you had good news. I'm so way behind you with treatment - haven't even had my mastectomy yet (7 April) but I SO understand scanxiety! I have not shed one tear about my diagnosis (in January) as I'm very pragmatic and have just let life go on while I'm waiting for my op BUT I will never forget waiting for those staging scan results - I reached for those Kalma tablets straight away - to help me sleep, to help me in the waiting room - my whole being was totally overtaken with 'what ifs' - thankfully it was all OK  - in fact the only time I've burst into tears is when I opened the results in the car and saw that it was all OK - but I know there are many scans coming up in my future. The waiting is the absolute pits.

Congratulations on your good news. I got really nervous for four years and then, for no reason I can work out, was quite relaxed for my fifth one. As I had always worried about getting a recurrence just as you were thinking you had got through five years, I have no idea what was going on. Except it was good not imagining the usual two or three weeks worth of odd feelings, twinges and so on! 

Does each anniversary get easier? 

Great news @Hendrix! I can only imagine your relief. My first mammo/us appt is coming up on 29th March and it creeps into my thoughts more and more as the date approaches. I went for a simple bone density scan on Tuesday and had convinced myself by the end of it that the radiologist had seen something. I've had lower back/hip pain with sciatica, so that's all I could think about! I'll probably be an anxious mess on scan day.

I called BC nurse and they had mammogram results back...all clear!! One to go...I don’t think I felt this emotional at diagnosis...numb yes!! I just past an exam I had for work and when I got results and they congratulated me I burst into tears...I feel like I’ve held my breath for 12 months and I can now breath...feeling very emotional today xx

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Oh goodness yes!  My 12 month ultrasound they took an incredible amount of time, I started to have a scanxiety attack. I had to ask for the radiologist to come in and talk to me so I didn't feel so sick!  Horrible nasty feeling.