Janey, I hear you, I've been through feeling responsible and guilty for getting cancer through not taking better care of myself. The truth is we all have stresses in our lives and sometimes circumstances are beyond our control, it is just how we react to those stressors that is the difference in what chemicals are released in our bodies. But we can only do what we can with what we know and what resources we have at the time...so, I try not to beat myself up about it any more. Sure I could have handled situations differently, definitely it would have been better if I had considered myself as important as all the other people in my life that put my needs as a priority. I think the diagnosis of triple negative makes us all ask the big question...WHY?? We can't blame it on hormones or receptors or genes, things that are out of our control so we start coming up with other hypotheses. I know people who abuse their bodies with drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, have dreadful diets or are anorexic and don't exercise and they haven't got breast cancer, so why do I? Maybe it's environmental factors? Perhaps it is related to childhood traumas or past lives, karma or unresolved emotions? I was told when I had genetic testing that even though I didn't have the BRCA1 or 2 genes, it didn't mean I didn't have another gene as they are quite sure there are several more that are yet to be discovered and my specimen will be stored and tested again when they do find those other genes. And as you say, Mother Nature is full of anomalies and irregularities. And here we are with TNBC...shit happens?? For me, with what I now know about health and nutrition, I am just trying to take care of myself better through a (mostly) healthy diet, fresh air, sunshine and moderate exercise but most of all spending as much time as I can doing the things that make me happy like spending times with family and friends, connecting with nature and spirit, singing, dancing, laughing and loving plus avoiding toxic relationships and situations as much as possible. I wish you and all the other ladies who are still on treatment all the best with the rest of your treatment and beyond. It's great that everyone is able to share their experiences and thoughts and how they are feeling. We are not alone. Take care of yourselves xx