Where does the time go???

Hi Penny This is my first connection with anyone on this site as I only joined last week, but I completely related with you & had to say hi! I am 37 with an 8 yr old 5 yr old & 3 yr old. I got my diagnosis a few weeks ago on 11th oct 2011 & had a mastectomy 10days later with sentinal node biopsy. No family history but I found a lump a year ago, & the gp, ultrasound & mammogram couldn't find anything. So I went back again this year to check on it & this time they biopsied it & then removed it, & found cancer! My right breast was completely covered in DCIS & 2 other lumps were found in the breast tissue that had been undetected prior to the mastectomy. My lymph nodes somehow remained clear though, & I have been lucky enough to avoid chemo & radiation therapy & just need tamoxofen! So it's not so much the treatment that Irelated with you but that feeling of changing my life! I too watch too much crap on tv & don't feel like I'm using my time the way I want! I feel like my life has completely changed, but I haven't yet changed my life. I yearn for the carefree woman I was a month ago, but don't want to live my life unconsciously anymore! I have made some appointments at a cancer care place here in adelaide, & am going to re-learn (I've learnt before but never used it) how to meditate, & then see a counsellor. I am hoping they will be the kick-start to getting me to live more consciously! My 3 year old will be up in 6 hrs so I will leave now, but please know that your words really helped me tonight, & I don't feel as alone as I have in the past few weeks! Hope you are not finding chemo too revolting. & pleased to meet you, Love Sam